Ahhh freedom

I needed to be away from home for a bit. So relaxed and content, well as relaxed as i can get with john around lol. I was really down before i left it was impossible to talk to him things were piling up god it was horrible i was going into one of my un-optimistic thinking states. Being here is great spending time alone and i even got to meet Chad. It was nice to sit and chat and laugh with one of his friends, i can see what he's like without me around. Now I'm kinda stuck up here because he's making something for me. I have no idea what lol. So I'm stuck up here, for now, but the bottom line is i needed a break and reminder why i killed myself to get up here. I love him, even if he messes up...well often, not too often lol. One this is for sure i'll need a nap when i get home, god soo tired, for now i'm going to eat my rainbow belts and wait.... ok maybe i plan to sneak a peek...