Ahhh freedom

I needed to be away from home for a bit. So relaxed and content, well as relaxed as i can get with john around lol. I was really down before i left it was impossible to talk to him things were piling up god it was horrible i was going into one of my un-optimistic thinking states. Being here is great spending time alone and i even got to meet Chad. It was nice to sit and chat and laugh with one of his friends, i can see what he's like without me around. Now I'm kinda stuck up here because he's making something for me. I have no idea what lol. So I'm stuck up here, for now, but the bottom line is i needed a break and reminder why i killed myself to get up here. I love him, even if he messes up...well often, not too often lol. One this is for sure i'll need a nap when i get home, god soo tired, for now i'm going to eat my rainbow belts and wait.... ok maybe i plan to sneak a peek...

Packing my stress away..

So the march break is finally here and I'm thanking god every min that it is. So much stuff has been going on i could hardly move. If i stopped my head would be spinning. So i work one last night, tonight, before i head to toronto for some much needed relaxation. Then again with john how much rest can i get *sigh*. I've been in one of my questioning moods the past few days again, well really i just started thinking instead of stressing...so much. I have so many things i need to talk to him about, i haven't had much time at home so i had none to talk to him What time i did have i was drained of all my energy. Things are changing, i want everything to be going the right way. So this march break will be to put everything on track. The funny thing is i don't know what exactly it means will happen.. i may come out worse shape then i went in...