So really confused ?

I don't know sometimes if I'm going in the right direction. I wanted to go this way but the path seems much different then when i first started, not the one i started. Is this like a fork? to test me to decide if this is really for me, if it's a bad idea, maybe i was wrong all along, but it all seemed so right... Maybe it's the weight of everything crashing down on me. Responsibility branding itself into my mind and being. I feel like I'm losing that child like sense i loved. Everything is duty, time management, work, deadlines, budget, money... It's not like it used to be when i started down all my paths... It used to be about passion and love, inspiration, freedom, expression, self discovery. It's all slowly being shoved aside... I don't know if I'm going the right way anymore... Did i take a wrong turn? Or am i lost? Or is this all there is at then end, slowly taking away it's initial charms that lured me in. I'm not sure about anything I'm doing right now. I think i need some time to evaluate where i.... GAh!! it's all evaluation and calculation I'm even trying to reason and file my own mind. Will someone just take me the sea, forest, mountain, anywhere! Somewhere, where I can see something other than this world caving in on me. I've been too long cooped up in my rural area thats now cut off of any form of nature. Take me away...